Is it Normal to Feel Normal?

I’m on day 5 of Lupron and both yesterday and today I’ve felt fine, really good even. Monday I had a persistent headache, but that isn’t really anything new for me because I get chronic headaches. Tuesday I had a headache also, but I think that was stress-related to my practice IM shot at my clinic. H hit a blood vessel. They say there’s like only a 1 percent chance of hitting a blood vessel. So of course, we got one on the first try. Luckily they didn’t make him try again. Once the headache went away yesterday, I think I could have actually described myself as giddy. Could insanity be a side effect of my shots? I have stopped bruising with each needle, though the original two bruises on my belly are still like two big purple eyeballs looking out at me when I change my clothes. Boy, I do wish I had given Bra-less a good look at those bruises. Make her shudder the way I did whenever I got a glimpse of her too-pointy breasts peaking out through the underarms of her Britney Spears-approved grunge wear. Ugh.

I’m waiting for AF to arrive so I can have my Lupron eval on Saturday. I feel the symptoms, so I’m hoping she won’t disappoint. I think I’ll immediately lose all my feelings of goodwill if things start getting delayed. Guess I better be ready for that, because we all know that delays are the name of the game here. Still, I feel better about my and H’s choice to go through with this and I’m—dare I say it—hopeful that it will eventually pay off with the thing we want most in the world. H is still a little depressed, but I think seeing me in a good mood has helped. He feels really guilty about jabbing me every day, and he was horrified when he hit the blood vessel in my hip. I bit my lip and wasn’t a baby about the pain for his sake. See, this Lupron is totally altering my behavior.